TAKE A BITE

Last Friday afternoon, I went to Kuma's Corner to try their Ghost burger. If you haven't heard about it yet, it's a burger with an unconsecrated communion wafer and a red wine reduction on top.  You can read about the burger and the debate on my Forbes blog: "A Supposedly Sinful Burger Stirs Up Controversy."

"An unsmiling hostess in a Rob Zombie T-shirt took me to a table on the back patio. The menu noted, 'THERE ARE NO VEGAN OPTIONS ON KUMA’S MENU.' The burger options included the Black Sabbath, the Iron Maiden, and the Plague Bringer. Beers ranged from the Cane & Ebel to the Greenbush Anger to the Flying Dog Raging Bitch."

I really enjoy doing these stories. The eating part is fun -- I still haven't figured out how to not eat the whole thing when you're eating for work -- and I like trying new things that are of interest to other people.  

One challenge, I've found, is: How do you write about the way something tasted? That's very complex. It makes me have more respect for food writers.  

The Ghost burger really is terrific. I want to go back and eat another one. I guess I'll have to watch out for the protestors.  

I TRIED THE MAC ATTACK

In the not-really-shadow of Wrigley Field, across the street from a beer billboard under which a blonde in running shorts jogged like a gazelle, you'll find Rockit Burger Bar, a sports bar serving the Mac Attack, a hamburger with a bun made of fried macaroni and cheese.

This 100% comfort food alternative to the wildly popular ramen burger features two macaroni and cheese buns, a leaf of lettuce, a slice of tomato, and an 8-ounce Black Angus beef patty with Sriracha ketchup drizzled on top.

It costs $13. 

When I arrived, the place had just opened. A cluster of servers mingled near the rear of the bar. Sports shows played on the TVs.

I took a seat outside and surveyed the menu. The burgers and sandwiches had names like The Hottie, The Motherclucker, and The Gridiron. The guys had spiked hair. The girls, I suspected, were wearing Victoria's Secret underwear.

The Mac Attack wasn't on the menu. The brunette, blue-eyed waitress guessed for what I had come. 

"The Mac Attack?" 

"Yes," I said. 

She smiled. 

As the place filled up, the scenario repeated. Everyone was here for the stunt food.  

Eventually, the waitress reappeared and placed the Mac Attack before me. It came with a side salad. Why? I wondered.

In reality, it didn't look like this.

I picked up the burger; already, it was leaving a puddle of grease behind itself. I took a bite, and it fell apart in my hands. It was like eating a casserole of macaroni and cheese that happened to have a burger in it with your hands.  

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The Mac Attack after, Chicago, IL / Photo credit: Susannah Breslin

The mac 'n' cheese was treacly. Maybe because it has four cups of heavy whipping cream in it. The burger was very thin. Taste-wise, it didn't hold together. Its inventiveness was in its assemblage, not its consequence.

Nearby, a guy bit into his Mac Attack. The burger dissembled. Some landed in his beard. 

"Ha-ha," his friend across the table said. "I was kind of waiting to see how things turned out for you." The friend picked up his Mac Attack. The same thing happened. 

Looking around, I realized everyone who had ordered a Mac Attack was a man. Perhaps this was some sort of competition in which the man who ate the most absurd food item won. But were we winners?

I got up to leave the men to their Mac Attacks. The friend had given up and was eating his with a knife and fork. No one would be dissuaded.

Whatever the Mac Attack was intended to do, it's working. It was supposed to be available through Oct. 6. It's proved so popular they've extended its run.  

HOW IMPROV CAN HELP YOUR CAREER

A few weeks ago, I did a reading. Not many people showed up. Some people can't stand doing readings when hardly anyone is in the audience. It doesn't matter that much to me. One time, years ago, I did a reading, and there were two people in the audience. Generally, I think of every reading as a dress rehearsal for something else. 

Earlier this year, I took an improv class at Second City. If you're going to do improv, this is the place to do it. I wasn't even sure what improv was. I figured I'd stand in a room with other people, and eventually I would stand in front of the group and do something wacky, and everyone would laugh.

We started out in a small theater with a tiny stage, but after that, we split into groups, and we sat in a classroom. It was like being in school again. Maybe there were a dozen people in the class. The teacher was middle-aged, very skinny, and unshaven. He looked like he hadn't eaten in a long time. He wore long sleeves every day. I tried not to draw conclusions. 

It was an intensive workshop, so we went all day for three days in a row. One guy was from somewhere like Tennessee, and he hypnotized kids in classrooms as part of some sort of education. I think it had to do with teaching children what being susceptible is. There were other random people there. A young woman who was spunky, pretty. One of those burly guys who's funnier than you'll ever be, no matter what. 

We learned how to do space work, which is basically interacting with an object that isn't there, which is harder than you'd think. And we got into pairs and acted out stories without saying no. And we stood in a circle and played games that had to do with words and not thinking.

By the last day, I found myself lying on the floor on my back. There was another guy who was sort of above me in a chair, and he was pretending we were on a rocket ship heading into outer space. I went with it. I didn't have a problem going where he wanted to go. I held on and played along, and for all I know we got there. 

So, the reading I did a few weeks ago was the first time I had a chance to use my improvisational skills since I did the improv class. Basically, I didn't move as I read the story, except for once. It was when the wife who is telling the story describes a time that the husband in the story drew an imaginary circle around them and told her that they live together in this safety bubble. At that point in the story, I spun my hands through the air, showing the small crowd what the bubble was like.

Later, that was the part that people mentioned. They liked that. I don't know if they liked it because I flailed my arms in the air, or because they knew what I meant when I showed them that space where it's two people in a bubble together and everyone else is in another universe.

I WANT TO BE A MALE PORN STAR

One of the most popular pieces I've ever written is a post I wrote for Forbes: "The Hardest Thing About Being A Male Porn Star."  

I wrote it one way at first, and then my editor said I should rewrite it in another way, so I did that, and I thought she was wrong, but she wasn't wrong -- she was right. 

At this moment, the post has 945,210 views, and it gets over 1,000 more views every day. Most of its readers come from search. I'm not sure what they're Googling, but my guess is it's some combination of "male" and "porn" and "star."

I took the photo you see here of a guy who was at a porn convention in the Midwest. A lot of guys were wearing T-shirts with racy slogans on them. Another guy's read, "I WOULD CUDDLE YOU SO HARD." I don't know who the men are that like my post on male porn stars so much, but I imagine they are guys like these. Average guys. Guys who like porn. Fans of superheroes, cuddling, and women.

Since I wrote the original post, I've gotten over 100 emails from guys who want to be male porn stars. They email me from across the country and around the world: Florida, Pakistan, Suriname. They have this idea that I can help them break into the adult movie business. That's not what I do, and it's a tough thing to do. These days, especially. Unless you ride in on a girl's coattails, and that's another story altogether.

Sometimes, I email them back. I only write one thing: "Why do you want to be a male porn star?" Sometimes, they reply. Mostly, they say the same thing. They never really explain it. Not in way that I can understand it, anyway. I'm a woman. They're a man. The lack of understanding is the difference between us.

A few days ago, a guy emailed me about becoming a male porn star. "I need to talk to you!" he wrote. "You seem like you have a lot of info that will help me. Send me an email when you have time please." I emailed him back, asking why he wants to be a male porn star. "I like it," he replied. "I want to make money." Not long after, he emailed again. "I find myself into it," he told me. I didn't respond. "Did I mention something wrong?" he wanted to know. He emailed me again. "Are you still there?" he asked. He kept emailing. "Can you please get back with me?" he pleaded. I didn't know what to tell him.

HAPPY BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH

I wrote a piece for Women's Health on "What No One Tells You About Breast Cancer."  

My own breasts had tried to kill me. My tits had turned traitorous. I could no longer pretend I was immortal; I was fallible, imperfect, vulnerable. During chemo, I wanted to pick up the beeping IV machine pumping toxic fluid into me and throw it against a wall. I couldn’t. As much as I hate to admit it, cancer cowed me. It changed my cells, and it altered my sense of self, turning my bravery into anxiety, my recklessness into OCD, my braggadocio into silence.

WHAT I DIDN'T SAY

Yesterday, I wrote a post on my Forbes blog about a woman who runs an adult store on Oahu. Here's what I didn't include. 

1. A movie called "Jock Itch."
   
2. A movie called "Active Booty." 
3. A movie called "This Is Definitely Not Ugly Betty: A XXX Tranny Parody." 
4. That one of the store's most popular sex toys is the Glow Stoker, because it is transparent.
   
5. A movie called "MILFs of Japan." 
6. A movie called "Sensual Emotion." 
7. A movie called "Island Girls." 
8. The conversation we had about when she mops out the arcade. 
9. When I asked her why the Japanese come here to get adult movies, and she told me it's because the Japanese adult movies are censored, and then she said, "They want to see vagina. They want to see penetration." 
10. That some of the Japanese buy a lot of adult movies and then take it back to Japan and sell it. 
11. The part where she talked about Hawaii's "shaka vibe." 
12. The part where she said of her customers, "I'm not your mom."
    
13. The fact that the arcade also had video poker games. 
14. That she kept calling the back room with booths where you can watch adult videos "The Arcade," and I kept calling it "The Jack Shack," and she said of calling it "The Arcade" that, "It makes it sound nicer," which is true.
    
15. When I asked her who comes into the store, and she said, "Everybody."  

GUN TOURISM

For my latest Forbes post, I explored gun tourism in Hawaii:

In fact, as you walk down Kalakaua, you’ll see guys holding signs for shooting ranges and wearing T-shirts with targets on them. It’s their job to bring tourists to the smattering of shooting ranges in the area. One flyer offered “REAL GUNS” and “FACTORY AMMO” at the SWAT Gun Club. Another displayed the different firearms — from a 9-mm Beretta to an AK-47 — you could shoot at the Hawaii Gun Club.

It was like Telegraph Avenue in Berkeley, California — except for instead of burning incense and selling hemp necklaces, they were hawking the fruits of the Second Amendment.

ME AND MY .22

I went shooting and wrote about it for Forbes: "A Girl and a .22." I had a terrific time doing this piece, and my teacher was great.

The "firearms store" at the center of the story was fantastic. I was happier than a pig in shit when I was taking the photos.  

I love this shirt. (Ammo is in short supply.)

Last Wednesday, I drove out to GAT Gus in East Dundee, Illinois, about an hour northwest of Chicago. Located down the street from Santa’s Village Azoosment Park (the day I drove by, beyond the over-sized candy cane-framed entrance, the park was still and silent) and next door to Club Premier (the flashing digital sign in front of which offered the rental space to those with upcoming banquets, quinceañeras, sweet sixteens, birthdays, and weddings), this is not your average gun store. The massive building, which used to house a restaurant with a speakeasy theme, contains a sprawling, 65,000-square-foot firearms superstore, making it one of the country’s biggest. GAT — an acronym for guns, ammo, training — draws customers with 20,000 square feet of retail space devoted to all things gun-related and 63 shooting ranges. This spring, GAT completed an $8 million renovation and expansion. And why not? Business is booming. 

I'M READING TONIGHT

Tonight, I'll be reading a new short story, "The Urologist," at The Pungent Parlour in Chicago, IL.  

The Pungent Parlour is a monthly reading series hosted by Chicago writers Jeff Phillips and Jeremy Solomon, and will feature a rotating cast of six-to-seven writers presenting short pieces of Fiction and Essay.

Held at Black Rock Pub in Roscoe Village every 3rd Tuesday, this month's show will be on Tuesday, September 17th. Doors open at 8pm (mingle, get some drinks and apps) show starts at 8:30pm.

Readers this month include other Chicago writers;

Kevin Robinson
Aaron Cynic
Ben Tanzer
Susannah Breslin
Jeff Phillips
Jeremy Solomon

The show format draws on elements of a salon, set in a space that features couches and even a fireplace, and readers and audience are encouraged to interact before and after the show.

There is no charge to attend the show. Beers can be had for as little as three dollars.

HIRE ME

On my consulting page, you can learn about some of the work I've done in movies and TV, digital marketing, and the gig economy. Contact me for more information and rates.  

"That movie by that famous director starring that girl? I found her for him. That screenplay in need of doctoring? I did it. I specialize in Hollywood, vice, America's underbelly, and finding what you can't. I produce, write and doctor screenplays, help directors cast roles, conduct research, do voice overs, and serve as a popular talking head on network TV shows and documentary specials"

I GET EMAIL

"The romantic emtional scenes of porn videos gave me life in my youth at 26 with a sense of love now there just straight to sex.

So i search for a sexual partner on occassions to satisfy and found them already but haven't involve myself because it has been a long and complex relationship forming and two girls give me an edge or fuel in my life.

Sorry for getting personal.

I think banks and treasurers are to blame for failing to be involve in the business plan."

THE BEST CUPCAKE IN THE UNIVERSE

Today I visited Molly's Cupcakes. I'd heard they're the best cupcakes in town. But are they? As an investigative journalist, I knew it was my responsibility to find out the truth.  

I made my way through the teeming crowds of young straight people who have ruined the neighborhood for the gays over the last decade and stepped into Molly's. I'd seen online there was a counter with swings for chairs, but all the swings were occupied by boxes of cupcakes, thwarting my plans for eating a cupcake while sitting in a swing.  

Immediately, I noticed everyone working at Molly's was a) female and b) extremely attractive. The attractiveness was so endemic that I wondered if it was some kind of a plan. Probably, unattractive girls were turned away, unaccepted applications in hand, on a regular basis. Also, every girl was perky and seemed genuinely happy. Maybe it was the cupcakes.

I picked half a dozen cupcakes from the case. Behind the counter, two marginally older but similarly attractive females were assembling cupcakes. It looked like serious business.  

I wondered how wise it was to buy a cupcake named Cake Batter. What kind of a person buys a cupcake pregnant with raw cake batter? Me, I would realize later, as I cut into the blue-topped wonder and cake batter spilled forth like a Chicken Kiev I once had at the Russian Tea Room.

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Cupcake porn starring the Ron Bennington / Photo credit: Susannah Breslin

At home, I took the cupcakes up to the roof deck. The sky: blue. The breeze: soft. In the distance, sailboats wiggled on the lake.  

I sliced open the Ron Bennington with a fork. As far as desserts go, the Ron Bennington is an obscenity. A chocolate orgy of peanut butter filling and crushed butterscotch flakes. It is wrong. It is immoral. It is tasty.  

The Ron Bennington is Molly's most popular cupcake. Apparently, it is named for this guy. It does not taste like a cigar.

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Cocoa the Dog admires Peanut Butter Nutella / Photo credit: Susannah Breslin

What flavor is this cupcake? I forgot what I had ordered by the time I walked out of the store. I called them up to find out what I had. This one was a mystery. Quite possibly, it's the Peanut Butter Nutella. The cupcake wears a cookie like a hat. The middle hides a glob of Peanut Butter Nutella. The dog and I enjoyed it.

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Is it good for you? Does it matter? / Photo credit: Susannah Breslin

I began to feel slightly nauseous. Thankfully, I'm a veteran reporter with over a decade of experience. I plowed onward.  

The Peach Cobbler you can almost believe is good for you. I mean, it has a piece of fruit on it. A thin slice of peach soaked in sugar syrup, but fruit nevertheless. The cake is cobblery. Whip cream, peach puree, and brown sugar streusel are involved. This would be good for breakfast. Every day. Forever.

A wasp buzzed into the cupcake zone. I picked up my notebook and struck the wasp. It landed on the ground a few feet away, half-crushed. 

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So many cupcakes, so few stomachs / Photo credit: Susannah Breslin

Last year, I sampled cupcakes dispensed by a cupcake ATM. Molly's Cupcakes are better. Also, they are $3.75 a pop. The girl on the phone said the one on the upper-right was Molten Chocolate. Like a volcano of deliciousness.

I pulled the paper wrapper off, and the top of the cupcake came off in my hand, revealing the chocolate ooze inside. If this cupcake were a sin, it would be sloth.

Part candy bar, part cake, all guilty pleasure.  

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Me want cupcake / Photo credit: Susannah Breslin

Meet Cookie Monster. A mini chocolate chip cookie. A dollop of whip cream sprinkled with chocolate chips. A vanilla chocolate chip cake. A raw cookie dough center.  

I bite into the Cookie Monster and decide I will live the rest of my life in the spirit of this cupcake. Unabashedly, it is what it is, lacking self-consciousness, utterly Cookie Monsterish. It is the best cupcake in the universe.

The wasps swarming, I notice a smear of frosting obscures part of my notes. I grab what remains and run inside, the dog trailing after me. My work here is done.