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How Short Stories Are Made
Palm trees, Burbank, Calif., 2024 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
I wrote a short story about a sexagenarian who discovers an adult movie is being filmed in the house behind his. More recently, I was interviewed about it. When that interview gets published online, I’ll share the link.
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Flowers in Brooklyn
Flowers (Adult Movie Set) framed and on its way to the Don’t Be a Square group art show at Shag in Brooklyn.
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WWYD?
Estate sale, Toluca Lake, Calif., 2023 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
“What would you do if you discovered an adult movie was being filmed in the house behind yours?” Read it.
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I Get Email
Illustration by Susannah Breslin
Name:
[redacted]
Email:
[redacted]
Subject:
The porn industry, escorting industry and patronage
Message:
HI Susannah,
English is not my first language, some words might be off. I was asked by an old friend in his early 80s to research "what has become of" and if I could find her. He knew her back in the late 90s under her real name. Well, I found her. She worked as a porn actress and escort. She quit the business, went for a short while in a real job. However, nowadays she lives under the patronage, possibly of one of her former clients a possible UHNW individual. For such a self-determined and really independent woman to go down that route, it feels a bit irritating to see her in such a relationship. During my research, I was more shocked honestly not of what became of her, but about the hobbyist networks. The escorts circle back to porn to show that they are available, expand their clientele or show what is on the menu with them. That porn and the adult industry is basically a loss leader for them and just advertisement.
If you are interested in her individual story or my insight in the hobbyist networks, please contact me. Her story is really fasicinating and bold. It is not a story about my neighbour steals cable. It spans two continents, failed business endeavours, entrepreneur spirit and resilence but also hard truths. I will meet the old man that has asked me to find her soon and I still don't know what I will tell him. By the way, he is a Dutch liberal who has his experience with sex workers, I just hope it won't make him sad.
I don't want journalistic credit or financial compensation. Just someone to share my research with.
Kind Regards
[redacted]
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Topical Matters
I’m happy to share that a new short story I wrote, “Topical Matters,” has been published on failbetter. This story was inspired by a visit I paid to an adult movie set last year. The story line involves a sexagenarian in the San Fernando Valley who discovers that an adult movie is being filmed in the house behind his house.
Here’s how it begins:
“Stuart should have known something would happen on that day when he opened the door in the morning to retrieve the newspaper and noticed a religious tract had been left on the porch. He bent over, winced from the pain in his back, and scooped up the pamphlet. What is the Mark of the BEAST, read the cover. All the words were white except for the last word that was an alarming red. From the stormy sky behind the message, a bolt of lightning reached down to strike a building that was half the Vatican and half the U.S. Capitol.”
Read the rest here.
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I Mean ...
Come See Allycin, Hollywood, Calif., 2000 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
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Post-Traumatic Porn Disorder
“It’s possible, I suppose, I was the first woman to set out to acquire Post-Traumatic Porn Disorder.” Read here.
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A Comics Comment
Have you seen my comics? They’re online here, and they’re available in various anthologies, including here.
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A History of America's Most Notorious Business
Single mannequin, Hollywood, Calif., 2001 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
One of the book projects I’m working on is a nonfiction book about the adult movie industry. The working title is When Pornographers Were Kings: A History of America’s Most Notorious Business. The book interweaves narrative nonfiction, investigative journalism, and reported memoir. While the story’s primary concern is the adult business, from boom to bust to boom again, the narrative also includes my own backstory. In other words, it explores how I came to spend a great deal of time considering the manufacturing of pornography and what the means of production of explicit content and its product say about us as a society and a culture.
Currently, I’m reading Linda Williams’ Hard Core: Power, Pleasure, and the “Frenzy of the Visible”, which I’m embarrassed to confess I’ve never read. (You can read her New York Times obituary here.) Today I ordered Jacques Lacan’s Desire and Its Interpretation, as I haven’t read Lacan since I was in college and feel it will be relevant to some of my ideas about desire and the Other. I’ll probably also re-watch Brian De Palma’s Body Double, which is a marvelous interrogation of seeing and the sexual object and features Melanie Griffith as the adult actress Holly Body.
Probably the most challenging aspect of this book—outside of revisiting Lacan, ha-ha—is bringing to the fore how my background led me to the San Fernando Valley and the indisputably most interesting thing about it. (To quote the late Evan Wright, in his devastating “Scenes From My Life in Porn”: “I would come to joke that the porn video is indigenous Southern California folk art.”) Both my parents were English professors doesn’t exactly suggest one will grow up to write about the porn business. But maybe being raised in a house that was emotionally chilly and in which intimate relationships appeared to be one way but were in fact another might.
One early scene I chose to include near the beginning of my book is something I’d never written about before. I grew up in a two-story pink stucco house on a steep single-block street in the foothills of the Berkeley Hills. My second-floor bedroom was the smallest bedroom. A set of windows faced the street to the east, and a single window faced the neighbor’s house to north. Sometimes at night I would open this side window. Below, there was a small courtyard off our dining room in which tall bamboo grew, and I liked to listen to the rustling the leaves of the bamboo made. In the darkness, I would watch the bamboo list in the wind and crane my neck so I could see the Moon or Orion tracking across the night sky.
At some point, the neighbors moved out, and, as I recall it, someone else moved in. The new neighbors included a man who may have rented the bedroom across the driveway from my room. He seemed to have a lot of girlfriends. Every weekend there was a new woman. There was a ritual to it. The man and this new woman would appear. They would go in the bathroom and reemerge in burgundy bathrobes. They would kiss and then … slip from my view. I had a sense of what they might be doing, but it was vague. I was witnessing a kind of transgression, I surmised.
Revisiting that scene made me wonder if that was a kind of cinematic experience of the erotic. As in a movie theater, I was in a dark room. In the darkness there was an illuminated frame. Within this frame, people upon whom I was spying acted out a drama of intimacy. When I was writing this part of my book, it reminded me of what an adult movie director once said to me about why he had gotten into the porn business. He was a fan of horror movies as a young man, he explained. But what he really wanted to see on the screen was what happened in the pivotal scene when the knife raised, the woman screamed, and the camera cut away. That was porn.
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The Young Voyeur
“Revisiting that scene made me wonder if that was a kind of cinematic experience of the erotic.” Read it here.
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The Audition, Cont.
A panel from My, My American Bukkake Too, 2004
As I wrote on my blog previously, I pitched a story about the most extreme, out-there thing I’ve ever seen in all my years writing about the adult movie industry to a popular podcast. This podcast tends to explore topics on the outer limits, so I thought this may be a fit. They responded, letting me know they were interested and requesting a 10-minute audio audition. Because these events had happened some years ago, I spent quite a bit of time going over everything I’d written about this particular subject over the years. Last Sunday, I created an abbreviated version of the notes I’d taken during my re-research. Last Monday, I made a list of 10 bulleted points and sat down to record. For this podcast, you can have notes and bullet points, but in terms of telling the story, you must do so off the cuff. In any case, my goal was to record the audio in one take, which I did; I figured my first go at telling the story would be the strongest. Then I sent the audio recording I’d made to the producer with whom I had been in touch. Now, it’s a wait-and-see game. We’ll see what happens next.
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When Pornographers Were Kings
Adult actress in the grass, Los Angeles, Calif., 2001 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
One of the books I’m working on at the moment is a book-length work of narrative nonfiction. The title is: When Pornographers Were Kings: A History of America’s Most Notorious Business. More to come soon …
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My Photographic Foot Fetish
Adult actors film a scene, Los Angeles, Calif., 2001 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
In my latest newsletter, I try and understand why I take so many photos of feet. Subscribe to get it every week.
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Books I Read: American Ecstasy
I can’t remember the first time I encountered Barbara Nitke’s American Ecstasy series, but it was a very long time ago. And more recently when I realized I’d never owned the book version, I wasn’t sure why. Then I remembered that I was sick when it was published. So, finally, I ordered it. And this book just dazzles. During my career, I have spent quite a bit of time on adult movie sets as a journalist, and I have never encountered a woman who had a similar experience, which is captured in this magnificent volume. In her own words, the words of the performers and crew, and her dazzling photos, she brings to life the often hidden adult business, what it’s like to insert yourself into its making, and what we can learn when we take the time to look at and listen to a part of capitalist production that due to its preoccupation with erotic fantasy is often misunderstood and frequently vilified. I read and pored over this book at a glacial pace because I didn’t want it to end. This is better than Larry Sultan’s The Valley. This is the real thing.
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Jerky Boys
Recently I’ve been tracking down print copies of my older work and posting the stories online. The latest is the October/November issue of Nerve magazine. You may remember Nerve.com. For a spell, they published a print magazine. This short piece focuses on one of the most extreme things I saw in the adult industry.
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The Audition
Awhile back I pitched a story to a podcast. It would involve talking about one of the most out-there, extreme things I ever witnessed as a journalist on adult movie sets (and there were a lot!). The production team requested that I create an audio audition of what the story might sound like. That prompted me to revisit everything I had created that was about that out-there thing: photos, art, writing. I also viewed the adult movies that were created on those sets, which I found on adult streaming sites. During this research process, I re-read “They Shoot Porn Stars, Don’t They?”, which I wrote in 2009 and is about the Great Recession’s impact on the adult industry. I had always felt that I hadn’t gotten the ending right, but when I read it this time, I thought I did. In fact, I think it captures what’s at the heart of my writing on the adult industry: the relationship between fantasy and reality and what happens when you insert yourself into the tension between the two. In any case, I’ll post more thoughts on this audition process down the line. For now, that’s it.
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Adult Movie Set, North Hollywood, 2001
Adult actress, North Hollywood, Calif., 2000 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
An adult movie actress poses on a North Hollywood set, 2001. For more of my photos, follow me on Instagram.
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The Actress
Adult actress with script, Los Angeles, Calif., 2017 | Photo credit: Susannah Breslin
An adult actress reads her script before shooting her scene. For more of my photos, follow me on Instagram.
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I'm a Comic Book Character
In my recent review of Desolation Jones: The Biohazard Edition, I mentioned that a character in the comic book series is based on me. Her name is Filthy Sanchez, and she’s a porn czar in Los Angeles. What you see here is a snippet of their interaction. She appears to be accompanied by her gimp. I think it’s hilarious.
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